I don't read blogs.
Too many words.
I like pithy thoughts.
Perhaps I can just write tweets.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Blog.
There are now rules for blogs.
I am to entertain, to engage.
I was told once by a friend that a poetry sharing commenced. That he and his clever friend shared their witty work. Another gentlemen shared his soulful amateur work of leaving: the collection of goods, the items he took with him, and the walking through a threshold to a new place. The gentlemen sought my friend and his clever companion after the poetry sharing. The gentlemen indicated that he would like to be witty like my friend and his companion. The companion quipped, “Keep writing as you do.” My friend laughed and the companion laughed with my friend.
I know this laugh. It is ridicule.
I understand ridicule. I have meted out ridicule.
I love my friend and I love the wit of his companion. And I love the amateur.
Writing is breath. To live I will breathe and write.
Thank you for both.
There are now rules for blogs.
I am to entertain, to engage.
I was told once by a friend that a poetry sharing commenced. That he and his clever friend shared their witty work. Another gentlemen shared his soulful amateur work of leaving: the collection of goods, the items he took with him, and the walking through a threshold to a new place. The gentlemen sought my friend and his clever companion after the poetry sharing. The gentlemen indicated that he would like to be witty like my friend and his companion. The companion quipped, “Keep writing as you do.” My friend laughed and the companion laughed with my friend.
I know this laugh. It is ridicule.
I understand ridicule. I have meted out ridicule.
I love my friend and I love the wit of his companion. And I love the amateur.
Writing is breath. To live I will breathe and write.
Thank you for both.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Bad Writing_2
"No good deed goes unpunished."
The quote that serves me is my mother's crumpled sign above her kitchen sink, "Act as if what you do makes a difference," William James.
She did.
She kept Paula when the doctors told her to institutionalize her.
Mom is Bohemian and Irish. Stubbornness is predicated on these two islands, I mean, in these two places. I hated Paula because she got new underwear before her six year jaunt to St. Colletta's in Madison.
I hated her less when my brothers and I would watch from the back seat of our late 1950's station wagon, Paula in tears, as we left her in Madison once again after a day visit.
What good deed did Mom do to deserve a cognitively disabled child?
Mom's courage was not enacted on the blood of a battle field, but within the beating heart of a child of the Great Depression. Her older brother, David, sent home $2.50 from his naval pay in California to assist her large Catholic family at Lawler's Grocery on Webster Street in Green Bay, Wisconsin. She listened as her brother, Eddie, got whipped with a willow branch by Patrick Henry because Eddie had taken her for a perilous ride in a dinghy on the river.
Mom's good deed was perhaps to hope. She hoped she wouldn't get caught whispering during general math class at West High. She hoped she wouldn't get caught in a lie about not being seen with another man after her first blind date with Bob. She hoped she wouldn't starve before she married. She hoped her children would be healthy. And when one wasn't healthy she hoped she'd have courage.
She did. Have courage.
And perhaps the former quote is correct. She hoped and sometimes received. She was punished with Paula.
I'm glad she hoped, glad she had courage, and I'm glad she had Paula.
The quote that serves me is my mother's crumpled sign above her kitchen sink, "Act as if what you do makes a difference," William James.
She did.
She kept Paula when the doctors told her to institutionalize her.
Mom is Bohemian and Irish. Stubbornness is predicated on these two islands, I mean, in these two places. I hated Paula because she got new underwear before her six year jaunt to St. Colletta's in Madison.
I hated her less when my brothers and I would watch from the back seat of our late 1950's station wagon, Paula in tears, as we left her in Madison once again after a day visit.
What good deed did Mom do to deserve a cognitively disabled child?
Mom's courage was not enacted on the blood of a battle field, but within the beating heart of a child of the Great Depression. Her older brother, David, sent home $2.50 from his naval pay in California to assist her large Catholic family at Lawler's Grocery on Webster Street in Green Bay, Wisconsin. She listened as her brother, Eddie, got whipped with a willow branch by Patrick Henry because Eddie had taken her for a perilous ride in a dinghy on the river.
Mom's good deed was perhaps to hope. She hoped she wouldn't get caught whispering during general math class at West High. She hoped she wouldn't get caught in a lie about not being seen with another man after her first blind date with Bob. She hoped she wouldn't starve before she married. She hoped her children would be healthy. And when one wasn't healthy she hoped she'd have courage.
She did. Have courage.
And perhaps the former quote is correct. She hoped and sometimes received. She was punished with Paula.
I'm glad she hoped, glad she had courage, and I'm glad she had Paula.
Friday, August 3, 2012
Bad Writing_1
How it is done.
Pen to paper. Or finger tips to the computer alphabet keys.
My brother, Mark, has the best pencil sharpener on the planet.
It hangs upside down (actually it is designed to hang that way) in his laundry room.
It's been a rough summer.
I don't disarm IEDs (Improvised Explosive Devices) or have to grapple with the burka .
"An oppressive government is more to be feared than a tiger" (Confucius).
I do wrestle with my finances (or lack thereof--the tiger) and with generalized fear (anxiety--the oppressive government).
I read Linda Seger. She wrote that she didn't know that all people didn't eat hot dogs on Thanksgiving. That her mother did not talk about finances. Didn't want Linda to know that the family was short on cash. I have passed the gift of fear onto my children.
I am the new generation. Female, divorced, and scared without the padding of the patriarchy.
I tell myself my feet do the walking. Make the decisions.
I told my dad that there are stars watching over me. He said he hoped he and Mom are some of those stars.
Of course he is right.
My neighbor, Jerry, said that I can ask my dad for help.
I did. Dad sold my Packer tickets for a profit.
Do I sell the farm?
I told my daughter Meghan that I was selling the farm every day in my head. Perhaps it is time to walk. Perhaps I have learned the lessons of boundarilessness with spending that I can actually say "No" when my financial boundaries are crossed. Clean the cupboards, sell the piano. Step one and two.
If not, say "No."
Word for the day
roup2
noun
hoarseness or huskiness
(dictionary.com)
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